In 2003, Ma had a stroke. Dad was her full time caregiver until he he had a car accident that totaled the car. So in 2006, I became their chauffeur among other jobs.
At the time, to deal with the stress of running two households and working, I kept a blog entitled CJ's Whine and Cheeze. Egged on by some friends who enjoyed the first read through, you'll see your part when it comes by.
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Danse Macabre
Conversations with the Weebles can turn to morbid thoughts. Usually, this happens around the holidays . "Well, I wonder how many Christmases I have left." "This may be my last Thanksgiving." Deep sigh. Forlorn look. I'm never sure if the comments are to spark some sympathy or some sort of death wish.
Dad and I were having a cup of tea. Ma had nodded off and her tea sat untouched and getting cold. Dad shook his head and heaved a deep sigh.
"Sometimes, I don't know. Maybe it would be better to just." He raised his index finger and pointed it at his temple.
"Don't you dare!" I yelled horrified. "You're not going to leave me to handle this by myself."
He gave me that "what are you going to do about it look."
"If you do. If you do.." I tried to think of the worse thing. "I'll wear red to your funeral and dance on your grave."
He laughed. "That's alright. I won't mind."
I didn't think quickly enough on my feet. I thought of the perfect answer on the way home. What I should have said: If you do, I'll bury her in the same hole!
Mom lived on for nearly 10 years after Dad was gone. I have the same fear with Ingo being sick and 8 years older. I want to go first!
ReplyDeleteHugs to you
DeleteYour dad had a fine sense of humour.
ReplyDeleteHe did at that
DeleteNow THAT'S a threat! (Actually, it's one my mother went through with! They ARE in the same hole!)
ReplyDeleteAnd I thought my family was the only one 🤣
DeleteOne of my grandmothers went on for for years/well decades saying "if I'm still around next year at this time..." it got to be a joke. And she lived until 91. It's sad when older people start to think they have no value left.
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